Sunday, April 15, 2012

"Is GOD Mad at Me?"

"God said, "Saul is my chosen instrument to take my message to the Gentiles and to kings,as well as to the people of Israel.  And I will show him how much he must suffer for me." Acts 9: 15-16

"For I consider that the sufferings of this present world are not worthy to be compared to the glory that is to be revealed to us." Romans 8:18



Dear Praying Friends and Family, 

     I may have to consider changing the name of this email from the " Friday email," to the "Whenever GOD Allows It" email.  To say that I have had difficulty getting it done on Friday's in recent weeks is an understatement.  I have had time to write the past couple of days, i just have had difficulty concentrating and settling down to write. I have to keep reminding myself if this truly is the LORD's email to be an encouragement and share CHRIST with all who read it, then HE will give me the thoughts and ability by HIS power when it's time to write...i hope it's time, to finish what i attempted to start on Thursday.
     I want to remind everyone about our Women's Conference next Saturday at First Baptist in Athens. It's not too late to get your tickets so please come if you live close enough.  Karen Alexander Doyel who will be our guest speaker is a pastor's wife, and she has had many trials.  She will bring GOD's message of encouragement to us, "Persevering Through Trials," a need that is universal to all of us.  As my friend Tony Greene used to say, we are either in the midst of a trial, coming out of one, or going into one.  I find that to be very true and at any given time, we may be the encourager to others going through trials, or we may be the one needing encouragement.   None of us are immune to trials and tribulations in this world....just ask my friend i had lunch with this week whose son was killed in Iraq by a sniper's bullet, and has been going  through a divorce for three years or ask my friend Tim Greene who was going 70 miles an hour in a bus they recently purchased and didn't have insurance and he went through the windshield. Four surgeries later, he is anticipating getting back on the road again singing for JESUS.  Or ask another friend i met on the campaign trail whose mother in law is dying of cancer.  She and her five children moved  from North Carolina to take care of her mother in law while her husband is in seminary in North Carolina.  Just this past week, the LORD granted this dear lady dying of cancer, her one desire before going to heaven, to take her family to Disney World.  The trip took a lot out of her and her daughter in law said this has been her worst week.  Ask the Malone family about trials, as last year their son was in a car accident, and at 22, had to have both legs amputated.  One leg is below the knee and is healing nicely, but the other one, amputated above the  knee, has had difficulty healing, and he has had to multiple surgies and now he has a staph infection.  There is also my friend whose granddaughter had a baby several months ago and the daddy of the baby walked out of the hospital and returned only  just a few weeks ago, wanting joint custody of the child.  Another family is prominent in our community and their  family is going through a severe crisis.    Our dear former pastor that i asked you to pray for his son last fall when he fell 30 feet and the doctor said he would never walk again, just had his first grandchild and she is 3 months early. The baby weighed just a little over 2 lbs when she was born. Those are just a few of the people on my prayer list, and i'm sure yours is the same way..."Man is born to trouble as surely as sparks fly upward," Job 5:7.  We are NOT immune to trials...no, we are guaranteed them by JESUS Himself.  "In the world you will have tribulation, but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world."  John 16:33  I invite you to come and be encouraged in GOD's Word to help you and your loved ones in times of trouble.     Kathleen Phraner, pastor's wife at New Life Assembly of GOD will be leading the music, along with our own women's group, "Cornerstone.'   Contact me for tickets if you would like to go. We will spoil you and love on you and send you home encouraged in the LORD to face the places HE has engineered and is walking through with you. 


     "When we find ourselves most hopeless, the road most taxing, we may also find it is then that the RISEN CHRIST catches up to us on the way, better than our dreams, beyond all our hopes.  For it is HE-not HIS gifts, not HIS power, not what HE can do for us, but HE HIMSELF-Who comes and makes HIMSELF known to us." Elisabeth Elliot, "Keep a Quiet Heart"
   

  
       I mentioned last week that i had met a new friend and asked you to pray for her. Earlier this week, she came over my house  and we sat on the front porch and ate a tuna fish sandwich together.  Nothing fancy but the sandwich sure was good...i haven't had tuna in a long time. My friend and i enjoyed the warmth of the sunshine as we sat in the rocking chairs, and ate, and we talked about life.  Not far below the surface of her smiling face is a heart that is struggling with GOD's ways in her life.  She has some very deep wounds as she wrestles with her son's death as he died serving our country and with a marriage that unraveled years before it is "officially" coming to an end.  There are lots of questions for this one who prayed over her son's uniform and wrote Scriptures on the back of his name tag before lovingly sewing it on.   One of the questions she asked me on the porch that day "Is GOD mad at me?" 

   As we ate our sandwiches and i pondered her question, i shared with her the first thing i thought about when i learned that her son had been killed serving in Iraq.   GOD knew how she felt as HE gave HIS SON so that we could be set free from the death and sin.  Her son was killed in the line of duty by a sniper's bullet.  He was a Marine and all he ever wanted was to be in the infantry and shoot the big guns she said. She tried, and other's tried to talk him out of it, but that's where he wanted to serve our country and he gave his life defending our freedoms. 


    It's been several years but the pain is very much still there just beneath the surface for this Mama who lost her son. The questions are still there and she asked, "Is GOD mad at me?"  When will the next "bad" thing happen to me or someone i love?

    As we talked, the LORD brought some godly men to my mind who had died at an early age...Jim Elliot, who along with four other missionaries was killed by the Auca Indians they were trying to minister to and reach for CHRIST in early January of 1956.  Later, his wife, Elisabeth had the privilege of living among those sames savages that killed her husband and many, if not all of them, came to know CHRIST as their LORD and SAVIOR.  Keith Greene came to my mind.  Many of you are familiar with his songs as he wrote and sang powerful CHRISTian songs in the early 80's like "Make My Life a Prayer to You," "My Eyes Are Dry," "Create in Me a Clean Heart," "O Lord You're Beautiful," "There is A Redeemer," and many, many more.  Keith and two of his young children were killed in a small plane accident.  Also, Dan Dehaan came to my mind, an outstanding young Bible teacher from the Atlanta area i believe that GOD was using to reach others for CHRIST all over the world in a powerful way.  He too was killed in a small plane crash as a young man.  

    I shared these men with my friend,  to try and help her to see that GOD takes the godly home sometimes at an early age and that doesn't mean HE is mad at us. 
   

     I read the following words from Chuck Swindoll this morning and i shared them with my friend.  I hope and pray they are an encouragement to her, as they spoke to me in my own life about holding on to loved ones too closely.

     Each of our children grow to become a self-sustaining, responsible servant of Jesus Christ, in his or her own way. As God intended from the beginning, we released them to follow their destinies.
Some of you reading these words did not release your children in this way. Perhaps you have lost your child through death, a terrible crime, divorce, or some other horrible tragedy. Let me be clear about this. While God is the sovereign ruler of all and nothing is beyond His power or knowledge, a horrible tragedy is never a cruel, merciless act on God's part. God did not find delight in making you endure such grief. Yes, as with Job, He permitted it, but He is not the author of evil. The evil intent of a world that has been twisted by sin took your child from you.
God hates not only sin, He also hates death. He hates it so much that He sent His Son to destroy death by dying and rising again. Death is called in the Scriptures our "last enemy" (1 Corinthians 15:26). Ultimately, the Lord will have the last word in this fight against evil, and He spoke that word to us through Jesus Christ. Put simply: Death is the will of a world gone wrong. Resurrection is God's final triumph over evil.
Whether we lose our children by tragedy or design, this much is true: Anything we hold dear, we must learn to hold loosely. Let's face it, if we hold anything too tightly, it probably has us rather than our having it. And God will not allow that for your sake or the sake of your loved one.
Ultimately, the decision to hold anything loosely—especially as it applies to relationships—is an act of faith. Human instinct would have us clutch the things we adore most. Releasing them, presenting them to God, requires that we trust Him to do what is right. When we do this for our children, the lasting impact we leave is a practical model of faith. And I can think of no better way to teach our children about the God we worship than by modeling our trust in Him daily.

Excerpted from Charles R. Swindoll, Great Days with the Great Lives (Nashville: W Publishing Group, 2005). Copyright © 2005 by Charles R. Swindoll, Inc. All rights reserved. Used by permission.


     After i sent this to her, i hoped that i was not being cold or careless with her heart that struggles to make sense of her son's death.  The only way we can make sense of our sufferings is through the Cross of JESUS CHRIST.  HE died that we might be set free from our sins and have eternal life and abundant life here on earth.  How do we experience that  abundant life when our circumstances sometimes scream otherwise?   One way is by learning to give thanks in everything, even those things that we despise the most and think we could never be thankful for like losing a child, trusting GOD that even this too, fits into a pattern for good,is  and HE will do what is right and best.


     "The message of the cross is transformation.  We bring our sufferings, and CHRIST gives us joy.  We bring our pains, and HE gives us comfort.  We bring our deaths, and HE gives us life."  Elisabeth Elliot, www.elisabethelliot.org


     "I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly." John 10:10


   Below are some wonderful words of exhortation and comfort, not only in the big trial like the death of a child, but smaller trials that are  more natural to grumble about like the weather.  GOD asks us to trust HIM and thank HIM in everything. In fact not only are we not to grumble...that is a sin, but we are commanded to give HIM thanks in everything.   "Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, and in everything give thanks for this is GOD's will for you in CHRIST JESUS."  I Thess. 5:16-18

   I read a couple of devotions this week from Sarah Young's JESUS Calling  devotional book that really addressed  what the LORD has been speaking to my heart about this week  as i have struggled with feeling sorry for myself with much smaller trials than loosing a child.


 Trust Me in every detail of your life. Nothing is random in My kingdom. Everything that happens fits into a pattern for good, to those who love Me. Instead of trying to analyze the intricacies of the pattern, focus your energy on trusting Me and thanking Me at all times. Nothing is wasted when you walk close to Me. Even your mistakes and sins can be recycled into something good, through My transforming grace.

While you were still living in darkness, I began to shine the Light of My Presence into your sin-stained life. Finally, I lifted you up out of the mire into My marvelous Light. Having sacrificed My very Life for you, I can be trusted in every facet of your life.


“But blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him.”
—Jeremiah 17:7

We are assured and know that [God being a partner in their labor] all things work together and are [fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God and are called according to [His] design and purpose.
—Romans 8:28 amp

He drew me up out of a horrible pit [a pit of tumult and of destruction], out of the miry clay (froth and slime), and set my feet upon a rock, steadying my steps and establishing my goings.
—Psalm 40:2 amp

But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light. I Peter 2:9

From Jesus Calling by Sarah Young



Also from JESUS Calling:

   This is the day that I have made. Rejoice and be glad in it. Begin the day with open hands of faith, ready to receive all that I am pouring into this brief portion of your life. Be careful not to complain about anything, even the weather, since I am the Author of your circumstances. The best way to handle unwanted situations is to thank Me for them. This act of faith frees you from resentment and frees Me to work My ways into the situation, so that good emerges from it.

To find Joy in this day, you must live within its boundaries. I knew what I was doing when I divided time into twenty-four-hour segments. I understand human frailty, and I know that you can bear the weight of only one day at a time. Do not worry about tomorrow or get stuck in the past. There is abundant Life in My Presence today.


This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.
—Psalm 118:24

Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
—Philippians 3:13–14

Jesus Calling by Sarah Young  

"The deep peace that comes from deep trust in GOD's lovingkindness is not destroyed even by the worst of circumstances, for those EVERLASTING ARMS are still cradling us." Elisabeth Elliot, Keep a Quiet Heart

    I used the opening verse about Paul, because it reminded me that GOD's choicest servants are those who have suffered the most.  Think about those in your own life whom GOD has used the most in your life....are they not those who have been through the most difficult trials and overcome them through CHRIST JESUS?  I can think of several just right off the top of my head...some i've listed above, that have impacted my life the most and they are those who have suffered the most severe trials. When i think of my new friend who has undergone such a loss, i think of the ministry that she can have to other Mom's who have lost their children.   GOD can use her greatly to comfort others with the comfort that she has been given if she will embrace that comfort and receive HIS love in the midst of her pain.


      "In all your suffering, HE suffers.  HE is with you in the midst of it.  Helping you.  Loving you.  Drawing you closer to HIM, making you more dependent upon HIS grace and power."  Nancy Leigh DeMoss


"In all their affliction, HE was afflicted." Is. 63:9


     I entitled this email"Is God Mad at Me?" because that was the question my friend asked me and i hope that what i have shared has helped us all to realize that GOD is not mad when HE allows severe testing in our lives.  In fact, Hebrews 12:5-6 says:

     "My son, do not despise the chastening of the LORD,
        Nor be discouraged when you  are rebuked by HIM;
    For whom the LORD loves HE chastens,
              And scourges every son whom HE receives."


   On the contrary to being mad at us when we experience trials, Hebrews reminds us it's those the LORD loves that HE chastens:

     "The hard place in which you perhaps find yourself is the very place in which GOD is giving you opportunity to look only to HIM, to spend time in prayer, and to learn long-suffering, gentleness, meekness-in short, to learn the depths of the love that CHRIST HIMself has poured out on all of us."  Elisabeth Elliot, Keep a Quiet Heart

    However, if you have never trusted in JESUS CHRIST as the payment for your sins on the cross, you are the enemy of GOD.   GOD loves you so much HE gave HIS SON to die for you and for me and "whosoever believes in HIM shall not perish but have everlasting life." John 3:16.  It is not HIS will that any should perish.  "The Lord is not slow in keeping HIS promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance."2 Peter 3:9

      "For if, when we were enemies, we were reconciled to GOD by the death of HIS Son, much more, being reconciled, we shall be saved by HIS life."  Romans 5:10

   I received a song earlier this week through email that has ministered to me so much called JESUS SAVES.  It was sung by Prestonwood Baptist Church in Plano, Texas at their Easter Service this past Sunday and it is a powerful song, proclaiming what JESUS did to reconcile us to GOD so that we would no longer be HIS enemy, but be HIS friends, HIS children, and  one day rule and reign with HIM.  "If we suffer with HIM we shall rule with HIM." 2 Tim. 2:12.  I hope you will take time to listen to this BEAUTIFUL song "JESUS SAVES." :http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QPIc4UFwR0Y
"Jesus Saves"


Hear the heart of heaven beating, "Jesus Saves. Jesus saves."

And the hush of mercy breathing, "Jesus Saves. Jesus saves."

Hear the host of angels sing, "Glory to the Newborn King."

And the sounding joy repeating, "Jesus saves."



See the humblest hearts adore Him. "Jesus saves. Jesus saves."

And the wisest bow before Him. "Jesus saves. Jesus saves."

See the sky alive with praise, melting darkness in its place

There is life forevermore, "Jesus saves. Jesus saves."



He will live our sorrow sharing, "Jesus saves. Jesus saves."

He will die our burden bearing, "Jesus saves. Jesus saves."

"It is done!" will shout the cross, Christ has paid redemption's cost!

While the empty tomb's declaring, "Jesus saves."



Freedom's calling, chains are falling, hope is dawning bright and true.

Day is breaking, night is quaking, God is making all things new.

"Jesus saves."



Oh to grace, how great a debtor! "Jesus saves. Jesus saves."

All the saints who shout together. "I know that Jesus saves."

Rising us so vast and strong lifting up salvation's song,

The redeemed will sing forever, the redeemed will sing forever, the redeemed will sing forever, "Jesus saves."

"Jesus saves." 




    

     If you've never trusted JESUS to be your LORD and SAVIOR, i invite you right now, to ask JESUS to forgive you for your sins.  Whether it is telling lies, stealing, grumbling, dishonoring your parents, lust, fornication, adultery, idol worship,  all have sinned and come short of the glory of GOD Rom. 3:23)....confess it to HIM, and ask HIM to be the LORD of your life.  Instantly HE will save you, and you will go from being an enemy of GOD to being at peace with HIM and receiving the abundant and eternal life that is yours through CHRIST JESUS. 

"You are longing beyond all words to be restored and to be in communion with the SAVIOR again, and you can find no rest or peace until you are.  That is a sure sign that HIS SPIRIT is even now working in you." Hannah Hurnard, Mountains of Spice

     "Stand at the crossroads and look; ask for the ancient paths, ask where the good way is, and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls." Jeremiah 6:16

     "Through HIS sinless life, HIS death on Calvary as the sinner's substitute, and HIS victorious resurrection, we can be fully forgiven for all our sin, we can be reconciled to the GOD we have offended, and we can have the power to live holy lives." Col. 1:21-22

     "You, who once were alienated and hostile in mind, doing evil deeds, HE has now reconciled in HIS body of flesh by HIS death, in order to present you holy and blameless and above reproach before HIM." Col 1:21-22

     "We are not saved from sin by trusting in anything we have done.  The only means of eternal salvation is through placing our trust in what JESUS did for us on the cross, when HE died in our place." Nancy Leigh DeMoss, www.reviveourhearts.com

     "HE saved us, not because of works done by us in righteousness, but according to HIS own mercy." Titus 3:5


And such were some of you. But you were washed, but you were sanctified, but you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus and by the Spirit of our God. (1 Corinthians 6:11 NKJV)

But you  are  a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light; who once  were  not a people but  are  now the people of God, who had not obtained mercy but now have obtained mercy. (1 Peter 2:9, 10 NKJV)



   Oh, what a SAVIOR, JESUS SAVES, JESUS SAVES!!!  If i don't do anything else in this email, whatever day the LORD blesses me with the words to write,I want to proclaim HIS praises and proclaim JESUS SAVES! JESUS SAVES!!!  I am so thankful HE saved me from my sins when i was 19 years old...praise the LORD, JESUS SAVES, JESUS SAVES and HE wants to save you too.   Trust HIM today, HE loves you so much HE gave HIS life for you and me. 


    Please remember my friend this week as you pray, and please remember me too, as i try to be a friend to her and be sensitive to her precious tender heart. I don't want to say anything or do anything that will cause her to doubt GOD's love for her.  I love that line in the song, "JESUS SAVES," HE will live our sorrow sharing."  Pray for my friend that she will know the comfort that only the LORD JESUS can bring to her broken heart for HE shares her sorrow and yours and mine. Oh, what a SAVIOR...


         Pray for me...as the verse says, above..."not that  I have taken hold of this,"-  I haven't , but i am pressing on toward the prize in CHRIST JESUS. Believe me, i wrestle with thanking GOD and trusting HIM too, just like you do when the going gets tough, and i have even this week, when the going wasn't so tough. I need you to hold me up in your prayers and remind me of what i'm sharing here...we all do, and that's why i appreciate your emails so much and you giving me the privilege to pray for you and you doing the same for me. 
     
    Thank you so much, for taking time to read the email this week...may we walk in the joy and power and freedom of our sins forgiven, no matter what suffering we may encounter while we are here on earth knowing that JESUS indeed does SAVE!
     "Although the fig tree shall not blossom, neither shall fruit be in the vines; the labour of the olive shall fail, and the fields shall yield no meat; the flock shall be cut off from the fold, and there shall be no herd in the stalls:  Yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will joy in the GOD of my salvation. Habakkuk3:17,18

                                                                                          With all HIS love,
                                                                                                mitzi

     


"For GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only SON  that whosoever believeth in HIM shall not perish but have everlasting life." John 3:16

 "Just As I Am" Brian Doerkson

Friday, April 6, 2012

A Dump Truck Load Full of Grace

"From HIS abundance we have all received one gracious blessing after another." John 1:16


HE will supply all your needs from HIS riches in glory, because of what CHRIST JESUS has done for us." Phil. 4:13

    Dear Praying Friends and Family,
       We were so blessed to have my Mom and Dad come up and eat Sunday dinner with us today.  As they get older, and i get older, i realize how very short these times may be with my folks.  In fact my Mother mentioned today something about they may just have a year or so more to have health to go and do like they do now.   I  wish that i could stop time from marching on but i can't.   GOD has a design and HE gives us the grace to go on and be more than Conquerors as HE brings life out of death to us in all of its facets and circumstances.  I am so thankful for my Mom and Dad and all the grace GOD has poured forth from them to love and help my three brothers and one sister and our families for all these years.  Truly GOD has poured out HIS grace upon grace to us in thousands and thousands of ways through their precious lives.

               I was just about to begin this email, when i realized i had forgotten to respond to a couple of people who had emailed me about the last Friday email, "Jesus and Jack Daniels."   I really appreciate your emails and i try to respond to each of them.  Please forgive me, if i don't.  One of the emails i was reading back over was from a new friend i met in Lowe's the other day when i purchased the barrels to plant my tomatoes in.     The new friend i met was working at the check out when i bought the barrels.  I didn't really meet her, i just remembered her friendly smiling face when i checked out.  The next time i was in there, this past Friday or Saturday, she checked me out again, and i mentioned to her i had written a devotion about the barrels i bought last week.  She asked me about it, and i told her i would send it to her if she would like to read it, and so i did.  She wrote me back a couple of days later,  and  i forgot about writing her back until i saw her yesterday at Lowe's again.  I apologized for not writing her back, making an excuse about we've been working a lot in the dirt around here, or something like that.  She was  and busy, but we managed to talk a little and i asked her if she had a church home.  She was very kind but honest, as she shook her head no, and said that she and GOD were kind of at odds right now.  She was checking out customers and I told her i understood, and told her i would be seeing her later.  I didn't understand what she was at odds about with GOD, but i do know that i sure get at odds when HIM too and i am so glad HE loves me and is patient with me when i get mad at HIM when i don't like and understand HIS ways.

    Today as i was about to email you, i read back over her email, and she had included the site for her own blog if i wanted to read it. I hadn't taken time to do that before and didn't really feel like it, but today  i clicked on it and began to read.  The last post was January 2011, and the name of her blog was "A Broken Heart."  I started reading it, and it wasn't long before i realized that her son was a Marine and was killed in Iraq serving our country in 2007.  Her blog shared her journey, and her struggles with loosing her son, and all of the sudden, my understanding of her struggles with GOD greatly increased.

     I have never lost a child, and i can't began to understand what my new friend has gone through these past 6 years since her son's death.  I read another article about him written by his Daddy.   What a special young man from a special family, that GOD chose to take home by a sniper's bullet.  I didn't really know what to say back to my new friend when i wrote her back, that wouldn't sound callous and canned, but what i thought about almost immediatly, was GOD knows how this mother feels, as HE gave HIS own SON for us. This dear Mother gave her son, to help maintain our freedoms here in America and GOD gave HIS SON that we might be freed from sin's bondage and redeem us to be HIS children forever and ever.  I'm sure she has thought about that...but i know there are a lot of questions and things that she has wrestled with GOD about these past 6 years.  I found out tonight that this new friend not only lost her son, but her husband to through divorce after her son was killed.  I can't imagine how devastating that must be, but i know that GOD's grace is there in her life to help her...not just to get by, but to be More than a Conqueror through HIS grace upon grace in her life that HE daily supplies.  Please pray for her as GOD mends her broken heart, and for me that i would be HIS grace to her as a friend.
   
    Last Saturday morning, i attended the funeral of someone who was GOD's marvelous grace to the Evans family since before my husband was born, almost 55 years ago.  Louise Lane Barbee was the dear, dear friend and housekeeper to my in laws, and her friends, and later to our family and my sis in laws family when our children were little.  Louise was GOD's grace to us...as she laid down her life each week to come and clean and wash and iron, and do whatever the Evan's, or anyone else asked of her.  She was always so gracious, so kind, so submissive, so willing, and so loving to us and to all those who knew her.  She never had an unkind word for anyone, and her "offtime" was usually spent at church where she served faithfully for 64 years, or the nursing home where she loved to visit loved ones, or with her family.  Louise didn't have much money, but she was RICH in the things that mattered most in this world...she gave her heart to JESUS as a young girl, and she faithfully served HIM, and pointed others to HIM through her loving example.  She wasn't one to "preach" to you about JESUS, but she sure did live HIS life before you.  I used to often say about her, when Louise goes to heaven, she is going to be right up there with Billy Graham.  At the end of her funeral, which was packed out, and chairs had to be pulled into the aisles, her preacher exhorted her children, that their Mama had left them with "The Pattern," and indeed she had.  She has raised her children to love JESUS, to walk humbly with their GOD, and to love others as she so abundantly did in everything she did.  As many folks as she had to keep up with she wrote birthday cards to all of us when it was time for our birthdays and always wrote us a CHRISTmas card.  Louise didn't drive, but somehow she managed to keep cards and was always being thoughtful and showing the love of CHRIST to those around her.  It was nothing for her to work extra on Saturday and help "MeMa" my husband's grandmother fix one of her fine lunches, and help clean up, before going home to take care of her own family.  GOD reminded me of HIS wonderful grace to our family and to all who knew Louise Lane Barbee and the pattern of humility and good works and love and laughter that she brought to all who knew her.  Louise was a remarkable woman because her remarkable GOD reached down and saved her at an early age, and fashioned a life that would bear much fruit for HIM, and bring GOD much glory.  Her husband died several years ago, and Louise raised four children who also bear much fruit in the place GOD has them.  One son is a preacher in Nashville, who had many, many people come down for the funeral, along with several preacher friends, one son lives in Texas and helps children who are in trouble.  Marion, her daughter works in a health care field helping others, and took such good care of her Mother as Louise suffered from Parkinson's and had to move to a nursing home a few years ago.  Her youngest son is Wayne, and i'm not sure what he does, but i know he wrote this beautiful poem about his Mama that was her the folder for her Homegoing Celebration, entitled, "To Mother With All My Love"

     To the Mother Who We All Love, There is No Doubt She Flew Off Like a Dove,
      I know She is Gone to Heaven Above.  Like Sands Through the Hourglass,
      Is the Days of our Lives, Momma Thinking of You We Don't Have to Cry,
      You Would Have Wanted Us to Keep Our Heads Up,
      And No One Said That The Road to Heaven Wouldn't Be Tough
      It's Hard to Imagine Life Without You, Our Love for Momma Will Always Be True.
    
    I saw her big ole son, crying like a baby when he walked out of the church that day...grieving for his Mama.

    Louise was such a dear blessing, and her godly influence reached into all of our families and all across the south through her children, and the people she served so freely with CHRIST's love.  She never had a chip on her shoulder, and when other's wronged her, or slighted her, she turned the other cheek and raised her children that way too.  In a day and time when there could have been racial tensions, there was none with Louise...she loved and loved and poured out her life to help others and she was "colorblind," and she was definitely left "The Pattern," for her kids, and all who knew her...not her own pattern, but "The Pattern" of JESUS CHRIST...who laid down HIS life for HIS friends, and calls us to do the same.

"Greater love hath no one than this, that He lay down HIS life for us." John 15:13

"This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers." I John 3:16

    My brother Ralph, spent his week laying down his life for his little sister.  You know those barrels i got from Lowe's a couple of week's ago?  Well, i needed some dirt in those barrels and my husband wanted some dirt to fill up some ruts in beside our driveway.  My brother told me about a man who hauls top soil and the next thing i know,  GOD supplied us a dump load truck full of dirt this past Wednesday morning. 


 My sweet brother,  offered...i didn't ask him, to bring his tractor and help spread that dirt around our yard in areas it needed to be spread to fill in holes where the dogs had dug craters to keep cool, and the storm shelter needed some more dirt on top of it, and our driveway had huge ruts that kept getting deeper.   Last but not least, those barrels i bought needed 
some dirt....i almost forgot that after giving away much of the dirt, but we still have plenty!     GOD supplied "exceeding abundantly beyond all that i ask or thought." Not  only did He supply me with MORE than enough dirt for my barrel's, way, way more, but for my whole yard, my Daddy, some of my neighbors, my brother, my friend Wanda, and last but not least, something i really wanted he supplied enough dirt to make me  a little bigger garden in my back yard which i have desired for a long time.  My dear sweet brother used his tractor and his time and energy, to work, and spread, and load, and unload dirt these past three days, and didn't charge us anything to help us. 




  He told me that a dump load of dirt was a lot of dirt, but it cost only $10.00 more for the whole dump truck load so we decided to get it and share it.  He said it was really heavy, and i believe him after shoveling some it myself.  GOD sure has taught me a lot about HIS love and HIS grace as i thought about i just wanted to fill my barrel's with dirt, and GOD supplied my needs "exceeding abundantly beyond all that i ask or thought." Once again i was reminded that "Little is much when GOD is in it..." and GOD says if we have faith the size of a mustard seed that we can move mountains." "If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” Matt. 17:20.  Those barrels were like the mustard seed, and GOD did for more than i ask or thought.   Once again i saw GOD's marvelous love, HIS marvelous grace to supply our needs as i remembered how HE supplied our needs so abundantly through Louise when our children were little and i was so sick.  I looked forward to Louise coming each week, not just to clean and iron, and help out, but for her presence, her comfort, her encouragement to me spiritually.  I wanted her to move in with us, but GOD strengthened me instead.  Louise didn't talk about JESUS that much that i remembered but you knew that HE lived inside her and HE empowered her to be a mighty vessel of HIS grace to others.  During our recent campaign efforts when my husband ran for Circuit Court Clerk, GOD supplied our needs so abundantly through  our family in friends in so many ways.





      My brother, Ralph, has a servant's heart, and like my Daddy, he uses his hands, and his tractor, and his house construction skills to share GOD's grace and help.    






My brother was helping to build me a little garden and he volunteered to bring some old railroad ties for the border.  Because his tractor was already here at the
house, he hand loaded those railroad ties on his trailer and brought them up here.  I felt really badly because i decided not to use those railroad ties because of the creasol in them, and the potential for it to leach into the dirt.  I hated to tell my brother because he had gone to so much work, but he didn't get mad.  Instead he helped me with the stones i bought to build a wall for the border.  He was going to do the cement himself on the stones, but he twisted his back lifting the stones, so he called a crew that works for him, and they came and had the wall laid in 30 minutes and only charged a small fee....grace upon grace upon grace...a dumptruck load full of GOD's grace.



There was so much in my heart to write about this week, and a bunch I left out, like the trip to the vet in Pulaski Tuesday that turned into an all day trip, and the beautiful little park the LORD led me and my dog to to enjoy while we were waiting for Dixie to get through at the vet...grace upon grace upon grace  GOD lavishing HIS love in unexpected ways at unexpected times, because HE loves you and me so much.

   



    Last week i used the song, "How He Love Us,"  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JoC1ec-lYps.  I really like that song, but i got to thinking  it didn't say anything about HIM showing HIS love by HIS dying  on the cross to forgive us for our sins.  That is the greatest way that JESUS shows how much HE loves and care for us.  If we reject what HE did for us on the cross, then we neglect HIS great salvation, and HIS "Amazing Grace," to save a wretch like me.  HE loves us so much that HE died for our sins, and then rose from the grave three days later to overcome death and give us the power to overcome sin. We will celebrate HIS death and resurrection this week as we celebrate Easter.  Today our choir sang a beautiful song that really spoke to me years ago as i was struggling deeply with my sickness, not having any answers, and feeling very desperate as my symptoms got worse and worse.  The choir sang that beautiful song one Sunday morning, and i can remember my head lying on my pillow that night with the words going through my head, " I love you, I love you, that's what Calvary says... I love you, I love you, I love you, written in red." Here is that beautiful song sung by Janet Paschal, "Written in Red." http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-75QnMjukCo. I needed to be reminded then, and i do today, as we all do how very much JESUS loves us, enough to lay down HIS perfect, sinless life to pay for our sins, and He loves us enough to take care of all our needs in CHRIST JESUS.  



 "GOD always has enough ready and waiting to meet our needs, no matter  what they may be, and no matter how impossible the circumstances look."
                                                         -Hannah Hurnard, Hearing Heart



           GOD has placed people all around us, such as my new friend I wrote about above who are hurting, and need to be reminded how very much JESUS loves them and cares for them where they are walking.  HE has provided a dumpload truck of HIS love and grace and more to help them walk through the dark places that we all walk.  "If we have faith the size of a mustard seed...HE can move mountains of dirt, sin, and mountains of despair and discouragement, and hopelessness in our lives.   GOD can do the impossible and bring "beauty to our ashes," and "life through our deaths as HE did through the Cross.  HE is the GOD of the impossible, and "because HE lives, I can face tomorrow." 


     "The hope we have is a living hope.  We wait for it, in faith and patience.  CHRIST is the resurrection and the life.  No wonder Easter is the greatest of CHRISTian feast days!  No wonder CHRISTians sing! "
                                                              Elisabeth Elliot, All That Was Ever Ours


     The hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast, and which enters the Presence behind the veil, where the forerunner has entered for us, even JESUS." Hebrews 6:19,20.



   



      May the LORD help you realize how much HE loves you and transforms our sorrows into joy through the Cross of Calvary, "Where Joy and Sorrows Meet." Our choir is singing this beautiful song this Sunday morning...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nnNG3pJoExs I hope you will take time to listen to this powerful song that tells of the message of the Cross "where there is healing for the wounded, strength is given to the weak, and broken hearts find love redeeming."  Do we not all need a SAVIOR like this to save us from our sins, heal our wounds, strengthen us and heal our broken hearts? HE is there for all who ask HIM and receive HIM as LORD and SAVIOR.

                                    "Where Joy and Sorrow Meets"


There’s a place of quiet stillness ‘tween the light and shadows reach

Where the hurting and the hopeless seek everlasting peace

Words of men and songs of angels whisper comfort bittersweet

Mending grief and life eternal where joy and sorrow meet



There is a place where hope remains

In crowns of thorns and crimson stains

And tears that fall on Jesus’ feet

Where joy and sorrow meet



There’s a place the lost surrender and the weary will retreat

Full of grace and mercy tender in times of unbelief

For the wounded there is healing, strength is given to the weak

Broken hearts find love redeeming where joy and sorrow meet



There’s a place of thirst and hunger where the roots of faith grow deep

And there is rain and rolling thunder when the road is rough and steep

There is hope in desperation there is victory in defeat

At the cross of restoration where joy and sorrow meet





     "The power of the cross is not exemption from suffering but the very transformation of suffering." 
                                          -Elisabeth Elliot, Loneliness

"But we see JESUS, WHO was made a little lower than the angels, for the suffering of death crowned with glory and honor." Hebrews 2:9


     If you haven't received GOD's greatest gift of love, the salvation that is ours through JESUS CHRIST, you can do that right now, by surrendering your life to HIM and asking HIM to forgive you for your sins.  HE longs to show us HIS love in all its fulness and receiving HIM as our SAVIOR is the beginning of HIS love that HE wants to pour out upon us....grace upon grace upon grace.
  


  "If the cross is the place where the worst thing that could happen happened, it is also the place where the best thing that could happen happened.  Ultimate hatred and ultimate love met on those two crosspieces of wood.  Suffering and love were brought into harmony." 
                                           -Elisabeth Elliot, www.elisabethelliot.org


    As i cut the grass, Tuesday evening and then again Thursday morning, and looked at those thousands of little wildflowers that bloom this time of year in our yard, i was reminded again of GOD's grace upon grace upon grace in our lives...through the hard times, HIS grace shines the brightest it seems.  "My grace is sufficient for you for my power is made perfect in weakness." II Cor. 12:9  Hannah Hurnard wrote about it in one of her books, how the little wildflowers reminded her of GOD's grace in our lives.  GOD's grace is  all around us and we will see it if we will be stop and be thankful and look for it in the good times and the difficult times.   Sometimes it's difficult to see when our hearts are broken like my friends up above who have lost their son, and their Mother and me in my health problems.    But GOD promises in HIS time to give us "beauty for ashes," and HE gives us HIS grace upon grace to help us through the difficult and dark days that come to each and everyone of us...."many are the afflictions of the righteous but the LORD delivers him from them all."  I am so thankful for GOD using Louise to help us through those tough years of my sickness, and using her in all of our families lives to be such a blessing during the years my FATHER in law was a Sheriff, and serving the whole county and Louise helped to keep things going at home so my inlaws could do what they needed to outside of the home.  I am so thankful for the LORD using my brother Ralph this week to do what we couldn't...in our weakness, GOD was strong through my brother's willingness to lay down his life, his schedule for us, and bless us with GOD's grace upon grace upon grace. I am so thankful for GOD using my parents, our parents, to pour out HIS love and grace upon grace upon grace to us and our families.  

    I'm sorry if i've kind of rambled this week....just seems like the LORD has been speaking to my heart about alot of areas...and reminding me to be thankful and see HIS grace...like the IV i got last Monday to help me go for another of couple of weeks.  Yes, i suffer with my health, but GOD gives me the grace that i need to walk in the path HE has engineered for me.  I don't always like it...believe me i wrestle with GOD too, and have today about circumstances in my life that i don't like.  Then i am reminded to look for HIS grace to be sufficient and as i found out this week, even more than sufficient...like the two fish and five loaves of bread that JESUS used of the little boy's to feed the multitude of 5,000 and then their were several basketfuls left over in Luke 9:10-16. That's the way it's been with this dirt....we've used it and given it away and given it away and there is still some left over!  Wow...talk about a dump truck load full of grace...God's grace, grace upon grace upon grace, and more besides!


    If you don't have a place to worship our RISEN LORD and SAVIOR come and join us this Sunday at First Baptist Athens if you live nearby.  We would love to have you come and worship and praise HIM with us at 8:00 a.m. and then again at 10:30 a.m.  I love you and thank you for taking time to read the email and allowing me to share HIS love and grace with you...HE loves us so very much!


                                                     Because HE LIVES!!!
                                                                        mitzi


   
"And from HIS fulness we have all received grace upon grace .." John 1:16